Friday, May 25, 2012
It is hard to tell someone how it feels to have lost a child. Apart from the emotions you never knew you had, could have, or never even wanted to know about period, there is a lot of emotional and spiritual growth that you inherit. I know I have talked many times before about feeling so lucky that Josh has brought me in touch with so many wonderful people, and I am grateful for all experiences I have been given, and would do everything all over again in a heartbeat. One friend that I have not yet met in person, but has held my hand in so many ways is Marissa. Marissa lost her son Malachi 3 years ago today. I remember so clearly following her blog, fighting with all I could from afar for Malachi and his family. I had recently learned I was pregnant and it was morning time, I was in the kitchen, had just finished reading a post or maybe it was email, I don't remember, but Phil had walked into the room and asked what was wrong. I had shared their journey and showed him pictures, so it was no surprise when I turned falling into his arms saying "Malachi! How can this be! Its not fair!" Of course, tears stream down my face as I write this, but to have a bond with someone that you haven't met before and feel so much pain, love, and desire to be there to comfort was overwhelming. Our relationship only grew from there as we have journeyed through grief together. Marissa is such a graceful person, and her entire family is wonderful. I often feel like she is an old college room mate that moved back home that I just don't get to see that often. She has challenged me spiritually and emotionally and has allowed me to grieve along side someone else, has shared some great books, and has allowed me to know that we are okay and God is in control. I love watching Emma and Jackson (born 11-11-11!) grow. So today, I ask to take time out of your day, pray for those that may need some comfort, and don't be afraid to reach out to someone that may be in need of a hug, a laugh, or a knowing teardrop. I promise you won't regret it. Thinking and praying for your entire family today and always.