Joshua's Journeys #15: To Everything Turn, Turn, Turn

Sorry it has been so long since we've updated. A lot of changes have been happening, some easier to deal with than others. Going back to the beginning of the month, October 3 and 4 Phil and I spent the weekend in Josh's room. There really are no words to explain what was happening in our house that weekend. Joey had a great time being shipped off to Nonna and Grandpa's house (thank you!) while we were busy working in Josh's room, cleaning it out, painting, looking through medical supplies, retracing steps and memories. Change is inevitable. We knew we would have to get into his room and sort through things and turn it into a little girl's room. It had been nice keeping everything as it was. We could walk in and grab a suction catheter, a stuffed animal, or look at the tapestry that Josh would smile at every morning and let ourselves believe for a few moments that he is still here. Joey even enjoyed playing in his room. We have kept quite a bit, but have a lot to donate to other CHARGE families and Easter Seals. Change is never easy, but this was near unbearable. There are no words to explain the thoughts or feelings we have every minute of every day about Joshua. I just wanted to post some pictures of our beautiful first born baby. We miss you more than words.



And here is the room somewhat redone. We haven't taken pictures of the room with all of the furniture, but you get the idea...